By the sounds of things..

I'll be having to go to the funeral. I think my whole year group is going. I'm not sure how that will go down with the family, but I guess that's about forty times more tears that'll be shed, now.
I honestly don't think I should be going.. not because I just don't WANT to go. I mean, well, yeah I don't really want to go. I've never seen Kirsty grieve in my life, the only time I ever saw her cry was in Year 7 because of homesickness, and another time that year where she nearly drowned.
I've always only seen her happy and optimistic, seeing the good side of everything even when shit goes down.
She'll have changed, now. I'm not sure how I'll react to seeing that. I'm a little scared of that. I'm also unsure of how I'll react knowing her father's lying dead in a wooden box right next to us.

But that's not why I don't want to go. It just doesn't feel RIGHT. I don't have a good feeling about me going. I know it's right for Jess to go, because she's a close friend of Kirsty's, and all of the Saumarez girls should go too (Saumarez is the boarding house they all live in). Also other girls that Kirsty hangs out with. But me? I don't know Kirsty that well.. barely, really, despite knowing her for so long.
If it weren't for that, I would go even with the knowledge of knowing that it would be hard.
But it just doesn't feel right.

*sigh* I guess I could try to be of support. To Jess, definitely.

Wish me luck..? =/

~lylt,
The Aliway.

Shit always happens on a Thursday.
That much I know.


Let's all have a moment of silence for Jess' friend. From what Jess has told me, she deserves none of this. Losing a friend is one thing, but losing a father--it's not something anyone should go through. At all.

Spanish class sucks. It's too fuckin' easy.

On other news.

I might take your advice, Shadow. I've been considering talking to her for a while; I think I might just do it for once. It'd be better than having my neck breathed on all day and my personal space intruded on.

Also, I can't believe I actually know what you're talking about with the guitar things (kind of....) xD feel proud of me. I actually know what a pickup is. That is NEW.

And as for the fact that you basically got Kurt Cobain's guitar, that's freaking spastic. I'm so happy for you right now =D

And ditto with your band, that's great news.

And as for your hand, is it your right or left? If it's your left, rest it - try to keep your fingers off that gorgeous guitar for a little while, my friend xD

If it's your right, then get someone to write for you or something. Try to rest it if you can, I know it's harder when it's your dominant hand that's injured.

Not to mention, I have the most hilarious sunburn right now. My fringe covers nearly half my face, right? Well, guess what - half my face is red as a tomato, while the other half is normal. One thing's for sure - the risk of skin cancer on my face will be reduced by half if I keep this fringe. I think emos got it right somewhere when they made this kind of fringe a statement.

And I miss all of you guys like you wouldn't believe, right now.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Thursday, 25th of February.

The date is symbolic because it's the date that someone suffered who should never have had to suffer like she's doing right now.

Thursday, the 25th of February, is the day that the father of a classmate of mine, Kirsty Assef, died of a heart attack. It was very sudden. The only good thing - if there could be one - was that he died too quickly to have felt anything.

Doesn't mean Kirsty - a full-time boarder at my school - ever got to say goodbye.

Kirsty is one girl in this world who could NEVER have deserved this. She's a very kind, friendly girl who comes from a beautiful family. She's always enthusiastic about everything, she's very spirited and optimistic and everyone in my year group loves her to bits. I'm not exactly friends with her because, well, sadistic people like me don't exactly go well with angels like Kirsty. But we still got on, and I still think she's an awesome kid.

She's also pretty much my twin sister's best friend. My sister was absolutely devastated; when we were told, basically the first sound you heard in that period of shocked silence was a loud, keening sobbing from my sister. I've never seen my sister look as broken as she did that day, and I've seen her look pretty broken in the past two years.

So many people knew Kirsty's father personally, and everyone was deeply shocked and heartbroken for Kirsty.

All I can say is that it should never have happened. It's awful because Kirsty's an incredibly devout Christian, and it was during one of her favourite times of the week - chapel - that she was told. What kind of God could do that to someone? Especially someone like Kirsty? This kid has never done anything wrong in her life. She doesn't even swear, and she's so caring about everyone. I take my shit because I know I deserve it. But Kirsty could NEVER deserve what's happened to her and her family.

Jess and Bonnie are going to the funeral on Monday. I know that I could never go; it wouldn't feel right. I've never met Kirsty's dad, and I'm not even that great friends with her. Hell, I don't even know the father's first name. It would have felt wrong to intrude on something as deeply personal as that.

*sigh* it's always a Thursday that shit like this goes down. People may think Mondays are bad, but it's Thursdays which are the real shit. Maybe we should all hide under our beds and pray that nothing happens every Thursday.. but then even when we try to hide, shit finds us in the end.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

I think today's date has some symbolic meaning but I'm not sure what that meaning is. Oh well.

Ali, in terms of your stalker? Why don't you say something like..."listen, you've been an amazing friend to me, blah, blah, blah, but I'm falling behind/I'm going through a rough time right now, so could you please give me some space? Nothing against you or anything, I just can't really breathe with everything going on..." or something like that. It might get her to back off just a tad.

Anyways, other news? Umm... I'm getting a new acoustic/electric guitar, finally! It's lightweight and has pickups, so I can play it with minimum distortion, which is friggin' awesome. It's like a right-handed version of the guitar that Kurt Cobain played during Unplugged. I finally got enough money for it--I've been working at that guitar shop for six months or so, trying to earn that thing. And now I have. Joy!

Also, I seem to have split my hand open. It hurts. I was on the roof of my school (don't ask why!) and I tripped and fell on this sharp part of the roof that was sticking out in a very unhelpful place. So now I've got a big cut on my palm and it hurts every time I ride my bike. Which is every day. ...Grr.

Lastly, I'm psyched because my band, The Result, is co-headlining the Cragmont Spring Carnival. Whoot! It's our biggest show so far, and it might actually get us some cash so we can record a real demo. So I dance.

Mehh. I miss the rest of the members of MSF. A-friggin-lot. We need to conference-chat soon or something, guys.

-Shadow

Meep.

Oh look, another Aliway one..
Haha, yes Kyrie, we have vending machines now 8D saves SO much time, I don't have to walk all the way down to Moxons to get Coke, I'm mighty please about that ^^
And lol, Saji. I actually agree with you, though, glitter is the shizz *_* and I know who'll be standing next to you so it makes perfect sense xD

And ARGH. Art Excursion was a bitch. My stalker followed us around the whole time, and since neither me nor Bonnie had the heart to tell her to fuck off, she decided that we were her besties. So now she's even WORSE than before. The BEST part?
Today in Tutor Group our year advisor - with all the good intentions of any caring teacher trying to help us out - decided it'd be nice if we partnered up and gave each other back massages.
I won't say who practically grabbed my arm and dragged me into a corner with a terrifyingly gleeful/ecstatic expression on her face and practically felt me all up.

I'm not kidding. Her hands went scarily close to the area of the body parts which need a bra. Fucking scared the living shit out of me; any ideas?
Besides simply saying "GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY SPACE!!!" or punching her in the face? Sorry Saji, Shadow, I know you would have suggested either one of those and while I am SO tempted to try it at this stage, I don't want to be a cunt-bitch either.

@_@ somebody save me from freaky stalker.

P.S. sorry about the pointless stalker-rant. I just needed to get that off my chest. It's starting to REALLY stress me out at this stage.

~lylt,
The Aliway.

OMG A NEW POST.... Wait... I've Already Read That One

Just like with Aliway a few weeks ago, seeing old posts is just annoying me. So here is some new stuff.....I think.

I have decided on my wedding theme. It will be glitter. Yes, the shiny stuff. And it will be held in a giant glass box so that the light can shine through it and make rainbows. Wow, I sound girly. Well for those who know the important person who shall be next to me, you will understand why the theme is as such. ^^

So yeah. That's all...for now...mwahahhahaha
Saji

ps: I hate tennis...stupid coach. >:(

Episode 5775 of my life.

..Approximately... assuming I've been alive for 5775 days. Might have messed up a calculation or two. =/

Those of the anime-loving kind in MSF might be interested to hear of a manga I've discovered recently.. Black Butler. This manga is the shizz - victorian goth-lolita happenings, demon butlers (sexy ones too!!! *drool*) and twelve-year-old sweet/toy company owners.

Of course, there's the occasional pedophilia reference, not to mention that this entire manga has huge potential for a very illegal kind of yaoi. I mean hey, you take adorable twelve-year-old boys and give them sexy demon butlers, us of sicker minds know what could be done with THAT. But hey. This is the Victorian era we're talking about. >:D

So yeah. Check it out, I'd recommend it, I think it's great. Oh, and those who prefer anime versions, yes. It's on Youtube.. some of it, anyway.

Also, they recently introduced vending machines at my school... technological advancement at last o_0

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Luigi is the better brother...

I just read through all the comments you guys left about mine.

Thank you so much!!

I know I'm not fat, but it's just nice to hear people say that you aren't.

And besides, they have to come to terms with themselves as they are.

As Elvis Presely said

"The truth is like sunlight. You can shut it out for a while, but it will always reveal itself,"

So thank you, I love you guys soooo much!!

School isn't that bad at the moment, I have made some awesome friends.

And I am currently on holidays!! YEAH! TAKE THAT!!

Thank Buddha for Chinese New Year. So much fun.

I got $HK500 ad bought a book that I really wanted.

Its getting a little bit hotter here, but not too bad.

oh, and next week we go on out 'Outward Bound Expedition'

Yeah, over 7 kilometers of walking with 5 kilograms on out backs, whose fantabulous idea was this????

So, I probably won't make it back alive. But get this, this is just training camp! oh yes my friends, this is only the beginning!! In a few more weeks, I get to go on the real one! Which spans across 5 days. Oh huzzah.

Oh and part of our 'Bronze Duke of Ed' or AYP (either one) we have to do a skill and improve at it for 6 months. And I'm going to learn sign language.

I think it will be really awesome!

So that should be fun!!!

Anyway. That is a little update on my Asian life haha.

Hope all you guys are going well.

I love you all and thank you again.

-Kyrie

p.s I found this really cute song, Mario Cart love song. It's on youtube. It's so adorable. I also love 'Luigi's Ballad'. Don't ask why, I've just had a Mario Bros. fetish the last few days. haha

I am also looking for a new anime to watch, hmmm *looks through list*

<3>

I feel so behind..

This is what happens when your dad decides it'd be nice to have a little Brady Bunch weekend. I miss stuff.

Now, Kyrie.. I know exactly how you feel. Some human beings (if they could be called that) don't deserve the air they breathe, seriously. I actually had a serious discussion with Bonnie about which girls in our year should go into the Death Note. Yes, it's ok, Jaime Steele was number ONE on the list.

But holy God. I am so sick of these selfish, self-absorbed blind bitch-cunts. They make me want to take an axe to school, seriously - the oxygen of the world is being wasted on these lowlife fucktards!!!

I get so frustrated with the people I have to go to school with every day. They care more about their hair than, say, the Haiti Earthquake Disaster. Hell, even Angelina Jolie's doing something about it - yet these girls wouldn't lift a finger for anyone but their fucktard little selves.

They don't know what poverty - what real suffering is. I could never say I'd know what it is to suffer. Fuck, a broken nail - your boyfriend of the week deciding he's had enough of your promiscuous habits - is NOT suffering. Suffering is watching your family die of malaria. Suffering is when your husband died of AIDS - and that now you have HIV too. Suffering is the crazy homeless boy I used to see wandering around the football pitch, wincing and rubbing his head, asking for money. He survived malaria, but not before it destroyed half his brain and made him crazy. Suffering is when your father gets drunk every night and hits your mother.

I could never say I've ever truly suffered, not ever, not now, but at least I know what suffering is - at least I know how fucking lucky I am. These bitches couldn't give a shit - one broken mobile phone, one parent telling them they CAN'T stay out til one a.m at a party, and suddenly their lives are over.

THESE PEOPLE NEED A FREAKING REALITY CHECK GODDAMMIT!!!

Besides, Kyrie, by my definition you are not fat. You are epic and cuddly and just right. I sound like a freak, but you're like a teddy bear - could you hug one of those bony-assed bitches? Like I'd wanna fuck a skeleton. I'd much rather hug a teddy bear. Which you are - you're my teddy bear TT_TT

Besides, they speak of fat as in ugly. Pfft. There's a big difference between being fat and being ugly - you can't mix the two. You can be skinny and so ugly that Satan would scream - and you can also be large yet also extremely gorgeous - which all of you are.

These bitches don't know the definition of fat. In Kyrie's case it doesn't even matter - because you're pretty and you have a great personality and the cutest facial expressions ever. Who cares how much you weigh, goddammit, you can't go wrong with cuteness!!!! >w<

And thus.. this rant should probably end now. My weekend was interesting. Added note - it is epic fun to throw glowsticks at each other in the dark. Until your stepbrother hits your dad in the eye. Lol.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Proves How Much I Pay Attention... XP

Wait...FOB broke up??? I never knew this. Hehe. Omg I'm slow. But we all love me for it....most of the time.

Kyrie darling, I'm 'fat' too. And I shall be fabulous and talented with you. I also wish to keep my post as the bitch if it's not too much trouble. That entitles me to my opinion of people.. so if I don't like you you'll know about it.. and you will also recieve constant shit from me for the rest of the time I know you...because you are on my bad side. See maybe I should lend you some of my bitchiness Kyrie..or I could fly over to HK and just strangle their skinny asian asses....I could use a ribbon...cuz those bitches are that thin and that weak.

Sorry I sounded racist before. I have nothing against most asians...only the ones who act like bitches towards one of my best friends. Like I know an awesome asian...well half asian half australian. We had a convo about Owl City today (Shadow's cue to go OWL CITY DAMMIT like she always does. And I love her for that. ^^ )

Sorry I'm ranting. Bye Bye <3

Corporate magazines still suck

Hey Kyrie, I'll go rough them up a bit for you >:D

Meh. I just feel like beating someone up, I guess. I'm freaking out about where I'm going to school for sophomore year, my band is on the verge of being on the verge of breaking up, and life is just bizarre right now. It's like the calm before the storm. Something bad's gonna happen soon, and I'm driving myself crazy trying to steel myself for it. And I have to re-string my guitar.

Anyway... me and my sister recorded a demo of originals. It really sucks. So you're never gonna hear it. I just wanted to tell you. No lyrics, though. I may email them to the rest of the MSFians, for business stuff.
Just listen to me. I already sound like a fuckin' corporate sellout. Well fuck it. Signing to a major label isn't selling out. Losing creative control and becoming a CORPORATE ROCK/POP BAND is selling out. Like Fall Out Boy.
In my opinion, Fall Out Boy overstayed their welcome. Yeah, I know that bands' sounds change over time and such, but... really. FOLIE A DEUX was... it wasn't the greatest. And I know some of you like FOB so I won't bash them too much. But I went to a Fall Out Boy concert a few years ago, back in the Infinity era. It was a small venue, it was amazing. And then FOLIE A DEUX came out, with all of its poppy goodness and it was kinda like... what happened to this little bratty pop-punk band that I saw at the AMH a year ago? What's going on?
And then now, Pete and Patrick get into a little hissy fit on Twitter, and Fall Out Boy breaks up. I mean really. Boys, if you're going to break your band up, at least be MATURE about it. Honestly. Twitter, really? Sheesh.
Which is what infuriates me. These bands with so much potential going and "selling out" so that they'll win over Corporate America--the teenyboppers, preteens, and teenage preps of the world. That's what they turned into, a teenybopper band that appealed to the girls who listened to the Jonas Brothers and things like that. And that's where I, and my punk rock ideals, draw the line.

Listen to me, going from restringing my guitar to Fall Out Boy. I think I need caffeine.

You talk about me as if I give a shit about your opinion....

Seems like ages since I've posted anything...normal for me.

Last one was a little...um.....suicidal? To say the least anyway.

Anyway.

School has started. Isn't that the icing on top of the bloody cake.

It's not too bad. You've got the bitches, the white boys who think they are the shit, the epic asian girls ( I love them all) and the asian guys (^_^).

Then, you have my epic group containing the 6 people that keep me from going insane.

I swear, I feel my IQ dropping by the second when I am around these.....people. Racist, homophobic bitches. All of them. If you had to sum up everything that is wrong with our generation, it is them. I can't have one conversation with any of them.

And believe me, I tried. I was nice. I sat with them a few times. I had to leave, or I would have punched them all in the face.

As we all know, I am pleasant to everyone. Why make an enemy with someone? Be pleasant and everything will be okay. I did that, to the best of my ability. But today, I found out, that they are calling me fat behind my back..

I am not one to worry about my weight. I don't watch it, I don't diet. If I did these things, I wouldn't be me. I have accepted myself as I am. And if they can't do that, then that's not my problem.

And if they can't think of anything else that is wrong with me apart from my weight, they need to observe me a little more closely. I could poke fun at about 20 qualities about all of them, all of them a million times better that simple 'fat'. What, couldn't think of anything better? Do you even know how to spell fat? And if I'm 'fat' than you need to take a check at what 'fat' really is.

Fat is not giving into anorexia. It's feeling free to eat whatever the hell you want, when you want to. It's having the strength to walk away from Supre knowing that you don't fit into anything, and being okay with it. It's being a strong person.

The way I see it, they just called me 'Fabulous And Talented' F.A.T.

So thank you, "popular" bitches. For making me take a deeper look at myself, and find out that I am stronger than any of you ever will be...

Stuff is just.......oh look a shiny thing!

*sigh* Well nothing happening here. Stuff is just..stuffish I guess. Btw Happy Bday Shadow Dearest...even though this is really late. Sorry. And Aliway I'm sick of the old posts as well.. I was just too lazy before to post a new one.

Oh well...
<3

My history teacher's name is BEAN.

Argh, I have nothing awesome to rival Ali's post. Except that my birthday was on Friday--the 5th.
Right now, I'm in my World History class, which is the freakin' best class ever. Although it makes me want to punch things, 'cause we're watching a hella racist movie about propaganda and WWII and the russian revolution, et cetera. It really reminds me how much society's changed, yet how much it's stayed the same. I mean, Prop 8? Makes me sick. Hey, all of you homophobic assholes out there--don't like gay marriage? Then don't get one and shut the fuck up.

Until Niagra Falls
~Shadow

Oh gawsh, I'm so sick of seeing my old post xD

It's so.. complain-y? Is that even a word..?

Anyway. I have epic news. Well, epic to me, I don't know what you guys'll think.. ^^'''

So. I met a guy called Baxter recently, last week. He's pretty cool, funny, a decent guy (and before y'all get kinky ideas, no, he has a girlfriend) and a good friend. So, also last week, he saw my DeviantArt page and basically spazzed at me over Skype. Then begged me to do the artwork for his band's new single (He plays bass, and get this, he looks just like Mikey Way outta Three Cheers, lawl).

He also plays piano, guitar, voice, and just basically pwns at everything.. *fumes*

So, I did a picture, sent it to Bax via email, and the very next time I saw him (Mz Tobi will vouch for me on this one lol) his first words weren't "hey" or "how's it going" or anything, it sort of started off with big wide eyes and "YOU - ARE - AWESOME!!!!"

Heh =D

They still want me to change a few bits here/there, put in the single title and band name, but otherwise he and the band love it.

So sometime in the near future, my art (yes MY art!!) will be on the cover of a CD.

And I thought there was nothing better than art and music - what about the two combined? x3

It's an epic song, by the way - Seeing You by Damaged Theory. I wouldn't think it's on Youtube or anything, but it IS a great song.

So yeah.. I'm pretty happy about that x3

~lylt,

The Aliway.