Awkward turtle, indeed.

I have an update:

Life sucks.

End update.

*awkward turtle*

I'm a big girl now.

I didn't think I'd like it.
I was right.
I didn't.
I loved it.

Too much fun. No responsibility. That's the best part.

It's like you've got a cloud around your head. A cloud of confusion, sugar and humor. Everything is funny.
The sky is blue, hilarious. The grass is green, piss yourself.

I watched as the others had more. I'm not stupid, I have self control. Four was enough.

Sitting in the room, shots on the table. I felt fine.
"I'm in control" I repeated in my head.
"I'm in perfect control".
I repeated this so many times that I didn't notice my breathing getting deeper.
I started to laugh as my friend fell. All dressed in our short dresses and heels.
Pretending to be older.

I don't know why I thought it was going to be a good idea. I was certain I would stay clean until I was at least 17.

And for how long it lasted, it was great. I was about half and half. 2 of my closest friends were bouncing off the walls, while I remained seated and watched.

Then it stopped being funny.

The park was the only place to go. To wait, and pray, for it to leave our system. We all set off. I was 3rd worst. I had to be guided across the street, while the other 2 had to nearly be carried. We went up the stairs and I was fine.

"I'm in control" I repeated again.
"I'm in perfect control".

The non-drinkers kindly looked after us. I must have been such a bother.
We walked into a small area on the grass. It was passed 11:30 by this point, curfew at 11:45.

1 ran every chance she got. Laughing into the wind.
The other, wasn't having as much fun.

Her body was reacting to the self-inflicted poison of vodka. She couldn't stand, couldn't open her eyes and could barely keep her head up. She made a lovely pattern of vomit on the grass.

Water, bread, sitting down, breathing. All this did nothing.
She was our host.
We had to take her home to her parents, who thought we were going to the movies, not a pub.

We finally decided to go. She was having emotional fits, as was I and the other girl. I fell asleep several times whilst walking, luckily the guy carrying me was strong. I was fully conscious, I knew what I was doing. I could have gotten up at any time if I had wanted to, I just didn't want to.

We got in the cab, went to her house, and struggled to get her out of the taxi as she refused.

Her mother came. We went inside.
"Did you drink?" she asked us individually.
"No" I said, shaking my head. I was sobered up by now, the bumpy car ride had jolted some sense into me.

We got inside, the girl already with her parents. We all just sat.
Thinking of a story.
A lie.
A cover up so we wouldn't get killed.

Her mum called everyones mum. Including mine.
I didn't want to go home.

I finally did, and mum was surprisingly understanding. It wasn't like I had more that 5.

But, I have been grounded. For the first time in my life.

I can't "party" until I'm in Uni.

But even if I could, I wouldn't.
As much fun as I was having, I could barely see straight. Everything was funny, and then 2 seconds later I was crying for no reason.
We were thanking the one guy who stayed behind to help us, and we all started crying.

I don't think I can look at them on monday.
I don't think I can look at anyone for the rest of the week.

This will blow up.
Everyone will find out.

I'll either be kicked out, or suspended.
I'll be arrested.
Somehow, this is going to hit me in the ass, and hard.

I felt that I needed to tell someone the truth.
Mum thinks I only had a sip. Not 4 full on shots.
She thinks I was in my own mind. Not a drunken haze.
She thinks I helped my friends up the stairs. Not the other way around.

What the hell am I doing?
This isn't me.
I don't dress slutty.
I don't act that way in public.
I am the responsible one.
I am never the one that needs to be taken care of.
Who am I?

Have I really changed that much since I left?

I can't tell this to anyone else. So I thought I would tell you guys, my closest friends.
I've learnt from this.
I'm not going to do this again for a very VERY long time.
It was a scientific experiment.
I now know the result.
And how bad it could get.

But I was safe. I had a guy with me who would beat up anyone who looked twice at us.
Who stayed with us, just to make sure we were okay.
It's a pity he's not single.

I feel I've changed from this.
Maybe for the better, or the worse.
I know what I'm doing when it comes to alcohol now.
I know how much I can take.
And how much my friends can take.
So I know when to hold them back.
And when to make myself stop.
And be responsible again.
Because that's what I am.
The responsible friend.
Not the drunken loser, who needs someone to hold her up.

Good luck on your exams!!!

And enjoy that Tangle ^_^ those things are fun, I must admit.

I personally get my kicks off bluetack, but still, Tangles are epic fun.

Good luck!

And also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLENNA. Love you and miss you like hell! I posted a comment on facebook, but I'm guessing it's still blocked at your school, so I'm saying it now =D

FOR IT IS MY TANGLE!!

I have 3 tests tomorrow

Geography in the morning

Science in the middle of the day

And Drama in the afternoon.

And damnit I am going to take my Tangle in with me.
It helps me concentrate, twirling those curved bits of plastic around my fingers.
And If I have to do it under the table (which, albeit, looks very suggestive) I WILL!!

BECAUSE I LOVE MY TANGLE!! AND I WILL PASS MY TESTS!!

And although it may look like a dog has chewed on it, swallowed it, and excreted it. I LOVE IT!!
FOR IT IS MY TANGLE!! THE ONE I ONLY BOUGHT YESTERDAY! BUT I HAVE WORN IT OUT IN 1 DAY ALL THE SAME!

And I shall have it forever. For it is my Tangle. And it shall be called Tangey. And it shall be mine. It shall be my Tangey.



p.s wish me luck on my tests!!!

xx

xD

Lolcats are indeed hilarious... but I swear, nothing can go past Learn From My Fail.

oh oh oh!!

Haked IRL, ROFLazzi and LOLcats are my faves :D

I know what you mean....

I practically scream when the site updates. >_>

VDM and poorlydressed.com.

Pfft.

I practically live on that site.

and it can be called Wilber. I have no idea why, it just sprang to mind.

:D

It was?

Ooh! What's it called?

...And that post read surprisingly similarly to a Very Demotivational poster. Someone's been visiting that site a lot lately, huh?

...and don't go pointing out the fact that I KNEW it read like a VDM poster... >_>

A gay baby.

It was just born...

Um bit late there. We stopped fighting on Monday...like the day after it started.
<3

Sorry to everyone else

You can ignore that whole bit if you want.

Well, great.

Looks like I just lost my best fucking friend in the world. Because judging by this, here's how it's going to go -

Bitching.

Continue bitching.

Both of us to proud to get over our stupid egos, so continue bitching.

Glenna's fucking good at being a bitch (especially to me when she's mad at me) so continue bitching.

If this was back at school, maybe - give or take a few days or weeks - this could have ended.

But it's not. You're over there and I'm over here.

You clearly don't realise how much I care about you, how I would check my emails every single day in the hope you'd have replied, how it hurt when you hadn't. How excited I was, three weeks after not getting an email, to see one from you; only to find it was some bitch rant about you hate your friends.

About how you hate all australians and australia can get fucked. I don't want to bring politics into anything, but I still felt cut that you'd insult my country. I've never insulted americans, why are you insulting me?

So it felt REALLY great, after waiting all that time, to see that that's what my long-awaited reply was to be.

You go on about being in your 'hell' as if I can do something about it. WHAT can I do, Glenna?? WHAT do you want me to do?? Take you away? Fly you to your beloved Colorado - yet further away from me? Somehow force everyone in that place to like you?

As if you're the only one suffering, the only one having problems. My dad's fucking wedding is in May. I had to spend my holidays telling his fiancee - the woman he cheated on my mum with - that she looked beautiful in her dress. That the wedding rings looked lovely. That somehow, the falling-apart of my family was a BEAUTIFUL thing.

I may not have people openly bitching at me, but it's been fucking hard since everyone left. The only person I have left here is Bonnie, and half the time she's off with everyone else, bored with me.

At least people care enough about you to diagnose you, annoying as it may be. People don't CARE what's wrong with me. I'm stuck in my room, in my head, shit going on in there and I don't know WHAT it is. I don't even KNOW what's wrong with me, and nobody cares enough to find out. Nobody really cares. They tell you to 'not bottle it up', but shit, you open your mouth and nobody wants to hear about it, either.

Don't go on as if you're the only one with problems, because while it may not be as hard for me as it is for you, life isn't a fucking merry-go-round, either. It's a fucking horror house and I can't get out, my head's all retarded and I don't know what it is that's making me scared or depressed or angry, but it's like there's a demon inside my head trying to possess me and it's horrible.

And you go on as if I don't care two shits about you - you have no idea how wrong you are.

I tell all my friends that my best friend in the fucking world is an american and I love her to death. Yes, all of them. When Cassie goes on about my "crazy american friend" I defend you; yes, I tell her "Hey, she was just a bit jealous, ok? She's still my best friend, really, I love her to death - she's fine when she doesn't hate you."

When I list my "best friends" I list Glenna Marletto first. Because I've always considered Glenna Marletto my best friend. Yeah, she's crazy, yeah, she's temperamental, yeah she's jealous and needy and can't get along with anyone. But she's MY BEST FRIEND. And no matter how often we fight, even when she death glares me or writes shit about me or insults me or tells everyone how much she hates me because I'm a hypocrite bitch cunt who doesn't care about her, I STILL LOVE HER TO DEATH. Yeah, you probably don't believe it. I can see you rolling your eyes right now; there you go, right there, just like every single time we've fought, that eye-roll that would drive me absolutely bananas and make me throw tables.

You don't see how I miss you every single day to the point that it hurts. How I'd wish I could just take you back and hug you and hide you from tori and cassie and the bitches at your school. How I secretly wished, though I'd never say it, that you could just learn to GET THE FUCK ALONG with other people.

So that it WOULDN'T be so hard for you. So that you WOULDN'T have to be miserable because 'everyone hates you'.

You know why people can't get along with you? Because first, you cling to them. Then, when they get suffocated and try to nudge you away a little just so they can breathe, you get scared and cling harder. When they try to breathe, you take it as a sign that they hate you, for some reason. You think they're pushing you away so then you get jealous. You don't want to let them go, seeing them with anyone else hurts; they seem to be 'having more fun', suddenly that OTHER person is more of a friend than you and you don't like that.

So then you get irritable as well as jealous. They get annoyed with your sudden PMS-out-of-nowhere. Then, ultimately, a fight starts.

I don't know why you do it. I don't know if you've always done that, or if you do it because you're scared. Do you think everyone will drift out of your life, unless you cling onto them? Is that what life has taught you?

I don't know how many fights or arguments will tell you that I still haven't drifted away despite that. You cling onto me as if I'm running from you; yet, I'm still here, upset and pissed because; believe it or not; I ACTUALLY CARE.

Yep, four and a half years later I'm still here. Still calling you my best friend.

I don't know if anyone else has drifted. Maybe all of your friends in the past have eventually drifted away; is that why you now cling onto every new friend you make?

Either way, I think that the fact that I've stayed with you for all these years is saying something. Stop being so scared that I'm going to float off too. You may think that all my 'other' friends are more important to me, closer to me, just because they're physically with me. But I promise you've got it all wrong, because none of these guys, not even Bonnie, would stick up for me in the way that you have. That's why you're my best friend, because despite the stupid fights and everything, we still managed to patch it up and remain best friends. You still stuck up for me when I was being bullied in year 7 and I'll never forget that. Did Cassie stick up for me in Year 7? Did she ever stick up for me?

I guess that what I'm trying to say is, yeah. I'm pissed. I'm upset. I'm bitching and ranting and screaming and yelling and crying. What you said in those last two blogs really pissed me off and REALLY hurt me.

But it hurt me because I actually care, despite what you're saying.

I'm upset and angry, but I'm NOT drifting away, despite what you believe.

Thing is, I know you too well, and you're way too proud to believe that I could possibly be telling the truth. So you won't believe me. And this stupid fucking farce is going to continue.

God, I don't know why I wrote all of that, you probably didn't even read it. You probably don't care, you don't want to be told you're wrong, especially from me. But hell, it's not like "I care", is it?

Yeah..I had other plans so I wouldn't go broke while everyone else did whatever until they were ready to make music. And you know what Aliway, fuck this. This never would have worked because I'm too much of a jealous bitch. That's what it comes down to. Because it's been eating me from the inside for almost two years now..knowing how much more you like other people (I won't mention their names for privacy reason but you know who) more than you like me as a friend. Because it doesn't matter how much I'm suffering as long as you're all happy down in Armidale surrounded by your friends that actually give a fuck. Whereas I'm stuck in this hell..suffering from anxiety and depression and apparently I also qualify as a developing anorexic now too. Great isn't it? Have fun with your fucking life cuz I don't care anymore. Well I do care...but it makes me feel like an idiot when nobody gives a fuck back.

What??

Where did that come from? "plans that totally went against everything we worked for" - what the shit is that all about?

You told me you wanted to be a beautician, ages ago. I dunno when you changed your mind, but since when were you the only one making "plans that totally went against everything we worked for"? Being a beautician doesn't have anything to do with music. And yet you're blaming the rest of us for deliberately pulling all of this apart?

And don't you dare talk to me about not giving it a shot. Who was the one who said "Yeah..I don't think it will. I lost confidence in it a few months ago. Begin solo project."?

Don't you dare blame the rest of us, because you're in it as much as we are.

Fuck all of this. If fighting and placing blame, or trying to prove our innocence (don't blame me, blame them) is what we're down to, then this never WOULD have worked out.

Great, now I'm pissed. I was actually having a GOOD day today until I read that.

Just So We All Know

that I realised a while ago it wasn't going to work. About the point when Sombra told me she wanted to tour around CA and Aliway said she wanted to go to art school. It kinda really sucked knowing I was the only one who hadn't made plans that totally went against everything we worked for.

It's okay. I'll just go be famous by myself. I don't fucking care that everyone gave up without giving it a shot before. I knew it wouldn't work and it was stupid to ever think it would. And for the record...I'm becoming a sound technician. I have every intention of working in LA/other parts of Southern California. From there I'll learn more about how music goes together..then I'll make my own. Because I don't think it was ever a stupid idea to do something I love. The only stupid part was thinking that everyone else would stick with me.

My 2 cense...

Okay.
I think it's wrong to blame Tobi for breaking it apart. If I'm honest, she was never really that 'into' it in the first place. It was just 'convenient' that she was learning guitar at the time. If we say that it started when she left and decided to do what she is doing know, I think we are just using that big event as something we clearly remember.

And by what I read on Sombra's post, it sounded like 'There's low morale on this site', since Lanna and Tobi don;t post on here. I was already having a bad day, and I most likely read it wrong. But you can see how it could be miss read. If it was not aimed, I apologize for taking it the wrong way.

And I do agree. We all want to do different things. If I want to become a psychologist, thats 4 years undergrad then another 4 masters degree. I really have no time. I can't learn bass because that causes money, and at the moment I am not free any afternoons at school. My "friend" who was "going' to teach me turns out to be a bitch and clearly stated "Well, I'm not teaching you".

So I really don't see how it is going to work. But, if by some miracle it does, I'm so there. This isn't me quitting, this is me saying what problems there are on my side, and that I have to work this out before anything. Besides, we all live on 3 different continents. I'm staying here until end of year 12, Sombra is probably staying ( I have no idea ) and so is Saji. We all know Aliway is staying ( ^_^). So, we cant meet up. My immediate plans are to go to Cambridge (I've made a pact with a friend here that that is where we are going). So I really don't know

But it was a nice thought, to be in a band and be famous. And I'm glad I was apart of that thought. No matter how short-lived it was.

xx

Guys...

Calm down.
I don't think anyone's trying to single out anyone. Kyrie, remember, they're talking about Tobi and Lanna as well, so it's not like they're singling you out. Don't make out as if they are, they're just trying to sort this shit out.

Because it's kind of falling apart and it'd take an idiot not to see that.

I'm sorry... I really want this to work out, but we have to be realistic. And the reality is that since Tobi left it kind of went down the drain. The motivation's not there, and neither is the drive.

It's not that we're sick of it. It's just that the idea's deflated.

I mean, we all have different aims and goals now. I want to stay in Armidale for a year, then go to uni in Sydney for an art degree which may take up to four years. Kyrie, like you said you want to take a GAP year, and Saji, you want to become a beautician (or at least that's the last I heard... I don't know if you changed your mind or what). I'm pretty sure Sombra's sticking around CA for a while too.

As for Lanna, I haven't heard from her for months so I don't know. I'm pretty sure she's out of the picture.

And Tobi...
I love her to death, but it seems like she wants to ruin her life. She's got herself into this mindset that she's a screw up who can't do anything right. She's sure she's going to end up either dead or a bum. Unfortunately, at the rate she's going, she will end up like that.
I know she can pull herself together if she BELIEVES she can. I believe in her, I honestly do. I know that if she can get out of that screw-up mindset, she can do great things.

But I don't know how long it'll take for that to happen.

Even if MSF were possible, it seems we all want to do different things. We may make plans, but our other careers may get in the way.

So... I'm afraid that that's all MSF may be. A dream. A nice one, granted. Not one that I really want to give up on.

But that's all it is. I'm not giving up. I'm just saying we have to be realistic.

Kind of singling me out there a bit aren't you Sombra? Since I am the only one not mentioned and the only other one who posts on here.

Besides, at the moment, I just want to finish school. But I'm planning to have a gap year, so anything can happen then.

But I'm not giving up.

And I'm hurt if you think that I would so easily

Doubt

Yeah..I don't think it will. I lost confidence in it a few months ago.

Begin solo project. <3

Another Question...

Is this band even really going to work?

I mean we've all got our respective genres, styles, etc. And it was all kinda Tobi's idea.

I dunno. I really want to be in a band. I've long since decided that that's gonna be my future.

I just... besides me and occasionally Aliway and Saji, there seems to be low morale around here.

hrrmmmm

I have no idea.

I doubt that we will get her back, and to be honest I don't care.

That's my 10 cents :D

Life is so boring here atm.

New fave song: Rhinestone Eyes by Gorillaz.

and yes, Catalyst is the bomb.

I should really be doing my maths, but I can't be bothered.

<3

Question...

Do any of you guys want Tobi back at all?

Just wondering.

Personally, I still do see her as part of the band, but I doubt that she's coming back.

Just my two cents.

On another note, I like Linkin Park's single The Catalyst. Haven't heard the album yet, but judging by this song, I'm hoping it's good.

And now I have nothing more to say, unless you actually want me to say anything else.

In which case I might.

But it's up to you..

Miss you all a ton.

~lylt,

The Aliway

aah..

aah... then I shall.

Have you guys seen Inception? That shit is nuts!!! I LURRRVVEDDD IT!!

btw, Centre of Attraction by Jackson Waters

my new fave song.

it is awesome.

Kyrie my dear, you should ask Saji for help with the American accent part. Mine accent is half Spanish, half Californian.

*thinks of something cool*

Umm...

I might be going to England at Easter???

I might be going to Paris next year on exchange?

Um, what else.

I'm auditioning for a lead role in a play tomorrow against this really bitchy girl?

I lost 2 kgs?

I do badminton after school?

I had a good parent/teacher interview thingo??

I got $20 today?

My new fave song is 'The Flood by Katie Melua'?

I'm writing 3 stories at the moment.

I'm going on a Junk (big chinese boat) trip this weekend.

This week is going by quickly.

Anime Convention was awesome

I have a Tardis (it's little, but it makes the noises)

I have a sonic screwdriver

I have a Jadoon catoagorizer

I have to learn how to do an american accent (Sombra, Saji, HELP!!)

Um...

I get all the maths I am doing at the moment (Statistics)

School ended early today.

I have a Death Note.

We're having lasagna tonight .

I am listening to t.A.t.U at the moment and have no idea why.

I'm getting over my David Tennant / Ianto depression.

I am beginning to accept Matt Smith as the new Doctor.

I'm getting slowly more popular.

I'm now listening to Phil Collins.

I'm studying Macbeth in English.

Stella is coming over these holidays.

I finished my storyboard for Science before everyone else.

You actually took the time to read this.

:D

I hope this was interesting enough for you to not bang your head against the wall out of sheer boredom.

<3

Where Have All the Blog Posts Gone?

Seriously...this is getting extremely dead. It's depressing actually.

Quick! Someone make up something exciting sounding...if only to stop the blankness of this blog.

Blankness

Don't worry Kyrie. You weren't the only one. Though I was waiting for someone else to post. Nothing is happening. :/

Just because...

Just because I am sick of seeing no posts on here, I have decided to post one.


....


um.
......




.....

beep..

2 Months Later...

*looks at last post by me on here.* wow...that was over two months ago.. there's a lot of things that have happened in two months.

like my plan to take over the world. *insert evil laugh here*
and my decision that i want to get a degree in extreme stunts (the reason for this shall be explained later....when i could be bothered.)

hmm what else. just stuff i guess.

2 months is still a loooooooooooooong time. :P

<3 Saji

Trust me, I'm the Doctor.

No new posts???
Wow, I think this is a record!!!

Well, update on me I guess.
I am now a.... DOCTOR WHO FAN!! *claps*
I am totally obsessed, its insane. My background is David Tennant, my ringtone is the sound of the Tardis, and I am about to start writing a fanfiction...... I know....crazy.

Well, before you say anything, my last obsession was Twilight, so it's a move in the right direction. ^_^

And school has been okay for the moment. We just finished NAPLAN...ugh.

oh, and I didnt do so well on a test that I thought I would have aced, a well, can't win them all.

Anyways.
This is only a quick update. So that's it for now.

Miss you guys!!!
<3

xxxox

-Kyrie.

p.s I got the new Skullduggery Pleasant Book!! AHH!! Just waiting 'til my birthday (which is a month today!!!) to read it! It's killing me though!!


byeeeee

Shit...

Kyrie, I wish you told me... although I have no excuse, since I haven't checked this blog for a while.
But if I were there in Hong Kong right now, I would have probably hunted down that bastard and done something. Don't know if I'd have been able to kill him, but I sure as hell want to do some serious damage.
I guess the most I can say is that I sympathize.. I get the same kind of thing in PNG. Only there, they're generally too scared to touch me because generally, my dad employs them.
But either way. What he did was truly disgusting and now I know that if I had the money for plane tickets, I'd go right over there and fucking move in with you. I don't want that to happen to you again.
If I was there, I would have beat the shit out of that guy. Whacked him on a pole or something. If only I WAS there..
Hell, I don't want that shit to happen to anyone I love here.
If I could move in with all of you and somehow protect you all, I would.
I really miss you guys..

~lylt,
The Aliway.

We'll always protect you, Kyrie. And if anything had happened, God help me I would have fucking gotten on a plane and gone over there to kick his ass a million times.
We're here for you. All of us. As a band, we're a family.
And I am going to go find this man.

No longer untouched

Trains.
A common occurrence here in Hong Kong. There are so many people coming and going from places I can't even pronounce.
Going from my station to 'The Island' is an adventure in itself. Trains, compacted with people. You're practically best friends with the person next to you by the time you get to your destination. Squished in there like sardines. Aimlessly grabbing the pole to not get pulled out at the wrong spot with the rush of people clambering to get off before the doors beep and come to a close, and the train takes off to it's next stop.

Usually these train rides are fine. The only thing that might be slightly disturbing is that someone close to you decided not to wear deodorant that day. But apart from that, nothing too bad.

The other day, I got on a train with mum, to go to a restaurant, meeting up with a mate.
We leave the 'Blue line' for the 'Red line' (one of the most compact lines). We get on and a lady says that I am beautiful. Being someone who usually doesn't get these compliments, I graciously say thank you, my self-esteem higher than before.
Mum and I take a few more trains, we even manage to get a seat for one of them. On these trains, if you get a seat, it is a real achievement.

We finally get to our stop. We clamber out, making sure we have all our bags. I've never been to this stop before, so I am not familiar with the station. Mum turns away from me for a moment, only a moment, to find a map. And then it happened.


I feel him long before I see him, As I remember back now, I can't see his face anymore. My mind has already begun to forget it, saving me the fear.
His hand stroked down my face and onto my neck. I whip my head around to look at him, only quickly seeing his face before I pull away. I hear him say 'Hello', but I'm already walking away.
I hide behind mum, like a small child afraid of someone new, clutching to my face.
My mother shouts, he looks shocked, like what he just did was perfectly fine, then walks off.

I can still feel him on my face, his disgusting, perverted hand. His fingers stroking my cheek. It makes me sick that he got that close. Mum didn't see it happen, only I did.
The only reason he did that, was because I'm a white, 14-18 year old female, nothing more.

And it just made me think.
This small occurrence in my life, opened my eyes to what is going on in our world. That girls, my aged girls, are dealing with this, and things worse than this. Some are too scared to tell anyone, just have nightmares about him.
Although my occurrence was barely nothing compared to rape or assault, I still feel I understand it more.
It pains me to think that there are the sickest people in our world, that do this.
What if I was alone?
What if he followed me home?
What if he grabbed me?
What would I have done?

In China, this is a normal occurrence in shady parts of town (which we later discovered, we were in).

Even after I showered, washed my face with Detol, and scrubbed my face. I can still feel him. And I feel disgusting and gross that I will remember him for the rest of my life.......
The faceless pervert at the train station.....

We're recording a CD this summer!

Still obsessing over Alice, yep.

Did you ever doubt me? ^^
Well, it's Monday and.. I hate my life. Well, the school part. Sometimes I feel like I'm school's bitch.
Not to mention - I downloaded the trial version of Adobe Illustrator, and while it is amazing, I'm finding myself increasingly frustrated with how LONG it takes to vector everything!! I'm currently working on a picture of Alice (haha, toldja I'm obsessed) and DANG.. I'm getting so sick of smoothing lines. I used the blob brush for much of it, and now I'm working on smoothing it up etc. And it's taking FOREVER.
Somebody recommended Inkscape to me, but to run it I need x11 and holy FUCK. Could it be any harder to find a site with a free download?! Not to mention - how LONG it takes to download?! Jesus freakin' Christ! I'm so over this! Why is it that Mac's don't come with x11? It's freakin' stupid.
So yeah. Wish me luck on the Inkscape thing, I'll keep you posted. I really wanna try this thing out, because it sounds good.
And I'll also continue trying to work out Illustrator. I wanna know how to do this properly, dammit! >.<

Enough about the art rant.. ok.
On other news, my classmate is throwing a tissue box at a fan. It's somewhat interesting. Tissues... everywhere....
Holy crap, she just got the fan to whack it into the bin! Epic.

~lylt,
The Aliway.

Why are there no new posts????

Well I had my bp test earlier this week. Then again, we didn't even talk about that. So I don't think I have it....however I do have other things. Strangeness. :P

Yeah....this blog is tres boring atm. It needs something epic on here....idk what though.

<3 Saji

Well then..

I know a new word in Spanish now. Don't worry Sombra. Your secret is safe with me.

Though I demand a link to this new blog. :)

That is all. <3

So, I, Shadow, have temporarily changed my Blog name to Sombra. It means "shadow" in Spanish. Why am I doing this? Because of an underground zine and blog that I'm launching with my sister. And a lot of people around here know who Shadow is. So for now, I'm Sombra. :D
Don't tell anyone.

Ello

Yeah. Umm well I haven't posted on here for ages. I'm getting very good at ignoring people lately. Well mainly a certain someone. And it's beginning to piss said person off so that's even better. ^^

Hmm what else. Oh yeah. Aliway I finally took your advice. I'm getting tested for bp on the 16th. Just to see if there actually is something wrong with me or if it's just fucked up hormones. Either way we'll finally know. :P

That is all for now. <3
Saji

ps: I have a new obsession with La Roux. Fascination is a totally epic song.

By the sounds of things..

I'll be having to go to the funeral. I think my whole year group is going. I'm not sure how that will go down with the family, but I guess that's about forty times more tears that'll be shed, now.
I honestly don't think I should be going.. not because I just don't WANT to go. I mean, well, yeah I don't really want to go. I've never seen Kirsty grieve in my life, the only time I ever saw her cry was in Year 7 because of homesickness, and another time that year where she nearly drowned.
I've always only seen her happy and optimistic, seeing the good side of everything even when shit goes down.
She'll have changed, now. I'm not sure how I'll react to seeing that. I'm a little scared of that. I'm also unsure of how I'll react knowing her father's lying dead in a wooden box right next to us.

But that's not why I don't want to go. It just doesn't feel RIGHT. I don't have a good feeling about me going. I know it's right for Jess to go, because she's a close friend of Kirsty's, and all of the Saumarez girls should go too (Saumarez is the boarding house they all live in). Also other girls that Kirsty hangs out with. But me? I don't know Kirsty that well.. barely, really, despite knowing her for so long.
If it weren't for that, I would go even with the knowledge of knowing that it would be hard.
But it just doesn't feel right.

*sigh* I guess I could try to be of support. To Jess, definitely.

Wish me luck..? =/

~lylt,
The Aliway.

Shit always happens on a Thursday.
That much I know.


Let's all have a moment of silence for Jess' friend. From what Jess has told me, she deserves none of this. Losing a friend is one thing, but losing a father--it's not something anyone should go through. At all.

Spanish class sucks. It's too fuckin' easy.

On other news.

I might take your advice, Shadow. I've been considering talking to her for a while; I think I might just do it for once. It'd be better than having my neck breathed on all day and my personal space intruded on.

Also, I can't believe I actually know what you're talking about with the guitar things (kind of....) xD feel proud of me. I actually know what a pickup is. That is NEW.

And as for the fact that you basically got Kurt Cobain's guitar, that's freaking spastic. I'm so happy for you right now =D

And ditto with your band, that's great news.

And as for your hand, is it your right or left? If it's your left, rest it - try to keep your fingers off that gorgeous guitar for a little while, my friend xD

If it's your right, then get someone to write for you or something. Try to rest it if you can, I know it's harder when it's your dominant hand that's injured.

Not to mention, I have the most hilarious sunburn right now. My fringe covers nearly half my face, right? Well, guess what - half my face is red as a tomato, while the other half is normal. One thing's for sure - the risk of skin cancer on my face will be reduced by half if I keep this fringe. I think emos got it right somewhere when they made this kind of fringe a statement.

And I miss all of you guys like you wouldn't believe, right now.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Thursday, 25th of February.

The date is symbolic because it's the date that someone suffered who should never have had to suffer like she's doing right now.

Thursday, the 25th of February, is the day that the father of a classmate of mine, Kirsty Assef, died of a heart attack. It was very sudden. The only good thing - if there could be one - was that he died too quickly to have felt anything.

Doesn't mean Kirsty - a full-time boarder at my school - ever got to say goodbye.

Kirsty is one girl in this world who could NEVER have deserved this. She's a very kind, friendly girl who comes from a beautiful family. She's always enthusiastic about everything, she's very spirited and optimistic and everyone in my year group loves her to bits. I'm not exactly friends with her because, well, sadistic people like me don't exactly go well with angels like Kirsty. But we still got on, and I still think she's an awesome kid.

She's also pretty much my twin sister's best friend. My sister was absolutely devastated; when we were told, basically the first sound you heard in that period of shocked silence was a loud, keening sobbing from my sister. I've never seen my sister look as broken as she did that day, and I've seen her look pretty broken in the past two years.

So many people knew Kirsty's father personally, and everyone was deeply shocked and heartbroken for Kirsty.

All I can say is that it should never have happened. It's awful because Kirsty's an incredibly devout Christian, and it was during one of her favourite times of the week - chapel - that she was told. What kind of God could do that to someone? Especially someone like Kirsty? This kid has never done anything wrong in her life. She doesn't even swear, and she's so caring about everyone. I take my shit because I know I deserve it. But Kirsty could NEVER deserve what's happened to her and her family.

Jess and Bonnie are going to the funeral on Monday. I know that I could never go; it wouldn't feel right. I've never met Kirsty's dad, and I'm not even that great friends with her. Hell, I don't even know the father's first name. It would have felt wrong to intrude on something as deeply personal as that.

*sigh* it's always a Thursday that shit like this goes down. People may think Mondays are bad, but it's Thursdays which are the real shit. Maybe we should all hide under our beds and pray that nothing happens every Thursday.. but then even when we try to hide, shit finds us in the end.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

I think today's date has some symbolic meaning but I'm not sure what that meaning is. Oh well.

Ali, in terms of your stalker? Why don't you say something like..."listen, you've been an amazing friend to me, blah, blah, blah, but I'm falling behind/I'm going through a rough time right now, so could you please give me some space? Nothing against you or anything, I just can't really breathe with everything going on..." or something like that. It might get her to back off just a tad.

Anyways, other news? Umm... I'm getting a new acoustic/electric guitar, finally! It's lightweight and has pickups, so I can play it with minimum distortion, which is friggin' awesome. It's like a right-handed version of the guitar that Kurt Cobain played during Unplugged. I finally got enough money for it--I've been working at that guitar shop for six months or so, trying to earn that thing. And now I have. Joy!

Also, I seem to have split my hand open. It hurts. I was on the roof of my school (don't ask why!) and I tripped and fell on this sharp part of the roof that was sticking out in a very unhelpful place. So now I've got a big cut on my palm and it hurts every time I ride my bike. Which is every day. ...Grr.

Lastly, I'm psyched because my band, The Result, is co-headlining the Cragmont Spring Carnival. Whoot! It's our biggest show so far, and it might actually get us some cash so we can record a real demo. So I dance.

Mehh. I miss the rest of the members of MSF. A-friggin-lot. We need to conference-chat soon or something, guys.

-Shadow

Meep.

Oh look, another Aliway one..
Haha, yes Kyrie, we have vending machines now 8D saves SO much time, I don't have to walk all the way down to Moxons to get Coke, I'm mighty please about that ^^
And lol, Saji. I actually agree with you, though, glitter is the shizz *_* and I know who'll be standing next to you so it makes perfect sense xD

And ARGH. Art Excursion was a bitch. My stalker followed us around the whole time, and since neither me nor Bonnie had the heart to tell her to fuck off, she decided that we were her besties. So now she's even WORSE than before. The BEST part?
Today in Tutor Group our year advisor - with all the good intentions of any caring teacher trying to help us out - decided it'd be nice if we partnered up and gave each other back massages.
I won't say who practically grabbed my arm and dragged me into a corner with a terrifyingly gleeful/ecstatic expression on her face and practically felt me all up.

I'm not kidding. Her hands went scarily close to the area of the body parts which need a bra. Fucking scared the living shit out of me; any ideas?
Besides simply saying "GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY SPACE!!!" or punching her in the face? Sorry Saji, Shadow, I know you would have suggested either one of those and while I am SO tempted to try it at this stage, I don't want to be a cunt-bitch either.

@_@ somebody save me from freaky stalker.

P.S. sorry about the pointless stalker-rant. I just needed to get that off my chest. It's starting to REALLY stress me out at this stage.

~lylt,
The Aliway.

OMG A NEW POST.... Wait... I've Already Read That One

Just like with Aliway a few weeks ago, seeing old posts is just annoying me. So here is some new stuff.....I think.

I have decided on my wedding theme. It will be glitter. Yes, the shiny stuff. And it will be held in a giant glass box so that the light can shine through it and make rainbows. Wow, I sound girly. Well for those who know the important person who shall be next to me, you will understand why the theme is as such. ^^

So yeah. That's all...for now...mwahahhahaha
Saji

ps: I hate tennis...stupid coach. >:(

Episode 5775 of my life.

..Approximately... assuming I've been alive for 5775 days. Might have messed up a calculation or two. =/

Those of the anime-loving kind in MSF might be interested to hear of a manga I've discovered recently.. Black Butler. This manga is the shizz - victorian goth-lolita happenings, demon butlers (sexy ones too!!! *drool*) and twelve-year-old sweet/toy company owners.

Of course, there's the occasional pedophilia reference, not to mention that this entire manga has huge potential for a very illegal kind of yaoi. I mean hey, you take adorable twelve-year-old boys and give them sexy demon butlers, us of sicker minds know what could be done with THAT. But hey. This is the Victorian era we're talking about. >:D

So yeah. Check it out, I'd recommend it, I think it's great. Oh, and those who prefer anime versions, yes. It's on Youtube.. some of it, anyway.

Also, they recently introduced vending machines at my school... technological advancement at last o_0

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Luigi is the better brother...

I just read through all the comments you guys left about mine.

Thank you so much!!

I know I'm not fat, but it's just nice to hear people say that you aren't.

And besides, they have to come to terms with themselves as they are.

As Elvis Presely said

"The truth is like sunlight. You can shut it out for a while, but it will always reveal itself,"

So thank you, I love you guys soooo much!!

School isn't that bad at the moment, I have made some awesome friends.

And I am currently on holidays!! YEAH! TAKE THAT!!

Thank Buddha for Chinese New Year. So much fun.

I got $HK500 ad bought a book that I really wanted.

Its getting a little bit hotter here, but not too bad.

oh, and next week we go on out 'Outward Bound Expedition'

Yeah, over 7 kilometers of walking with 5 kilograms on out backs, whose fantabulous idea was this????

So, I probably won't make it back alive. But get this, this is just training camp! oh yes my friends, this is only the beginning!! In a few more weeks, I get to go on the real one! Which spans across 5 days. Oh huzzah.

Oh and part of our 'Bronze Duke of Ed' or AYP (either one) we have to do a skill and improve at it for 6 months. And I'm going to learn sign language.

I think it will be really awesome!

So that should be fun!!!

Anyway. That is a little update on my Asian life haha.

Hope all you guys are going well.

I love you all and thank you again.

-Kyrie

p.s I found this really cute song, Mario Cart love song. It's on youtube. It's so adorable. I also love 'Luigi's Ballad'. Don't ask why, I've just had a Mario Bros. fetish the last few days. haha

I am also looking for a new anime to watch, hmmm *looks through list*

<3>

I feel so behind..

This is what happens when your dad decides it'd be nice to have a little Brady Bunch weekend. I miss stuff.

Now, Kyrie.. I know exactly how you feel. Some human beings (if they could be called that) don't deserve the air they breathe, seriously. I actually had a serious discussion with Bonnie about which girls in our year should go into the Death Note. Yes, it's ok, Jaime Steele was number ONE on the list.

But holy God. I am so sick of these selfish, self-absorbed blind bitch-cunts. They make me want to take an axe to school, seriously - the oxygen of the world is being wasted on these lowlife fucktards!!!

I get so frustrated with the people I have to go to school with every day. They care more about their hair than, say, the Haiti Earthquake Disaster. Hell, even Angelina Jolie's doing something about it - yet these girls wouldn't lift a finger for anyone but their fucktard little selves.

They don't know what poverty - what real suffering is. I could never say I'd know what it is to suffer. Fuck, a broken nail - your boyfriend of the week deciding he's had enough of your promiscuous habits - is NOT suffering. Suffering is watching your family die of malaria. Suffering is when your husband died of AIDS - and that now you have HIV too. Suffering is the crazy homeless boy I used to see wandering around the football pitch, wincing and rubbing his head, asking for money. He survived malaria, but not before it destroyed half his brain and made him crazy. Suffering is when your father gets drunk every night and hits your mother.

I could never say I've ever truly suffered, not ever, not now, but at least I know what suffering is - at least I know how fucking lucky I am. These bitches couldn't give a shit - one broken mobile phone, one parent telling them they CAN'T stay out til one a.m at a party, and suddenly their lives are over.

THESE PEOPLE NEED A FREAKING REALITY CHECK GODDAMMIT!!!

Besides, Kyrie, by my definition you are not fat. You are epic and cuddly and just right. I sound like a freak, but you're like a teddy bear - could you hug one of those bony-assed bitches? Like I'd wanna fuck a skeleton. I'd much rather hug a teddy bear. Which you are - you're my teddy bear TT_TT

Besides, they speak of fat as in ugly. Pfft. There's a big difference between being fat and being ugly - you can't mix the two. You can be skinny and so ugly that Satan would scream - and you can also be large yet also extremely gorgeous - which all of you are.

These bitches don't know the definition of fat. In Kyrie's case it doesn't even matter - because you're pretty and you have a great personality and the cutest facial expressions ever. Who cares how much you weigh, goddammit, you can't go wrong with cuteness!!!! >w<

And thus.. this rant should probably end now. My weekend was interesting. Added note - it is epic fun to throw glowsticks at each other in the dark. Until your stepbrother hits your dad in the eye. Lol.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Proves How Much I Pay Attention... XP

Wait...FOB broke up??? I never knew this. Hehe. Omg I'm slow. But we all love me for it....most of the time.

Kyrie darling, I'm 'fat' too. And I shall be fabulous and talented with you. I also wish to keep my post as the bitch if it's not too much trouble. That entitles me to my opinion of people.. so if I don't like you you'll know about it.. and you will also recieve constant shit from me for the rest of the time I know you...because you are on my bad side. See maybe I should lend you some of my bitchiness Kyrie..or I could fly over to HK and just strangle their skinny asian asses....I could use a ribbon...cuz those bitches are that thin and that weak.

Sorry I sounded racist before. I have nothing against most asians...only the ones who act like bitches towards one of my best friends. Like I know an awesome asian...well half asian half australian. We had a convo about Owl City today (Shadow's cue to go OWL CITY DAMMIT like she always does. And I love her for that. ^^ )

Sorry I'm ranting. Bye Bye <3

Corporate magazines still suck

Hey Kyrie, I'll go rough them up a bit for you >:D

Meh. I just feel like beating someone up, I guess. I'm freaking out about where I'm going to school for sophomore year, my band is on the verge of being on the verge of breaking up, and life is just bizarre right now. It's like the calm before the storm. Something bad's gonna happen soon, and I'm driving myself crazy trying to steel myself for it. And I have to re-string my guitar.

Anyway... me and my sister recorded a demo of originals. It really sucks. So you're never gonna hear it. I just wanted to tell you. No lyrics, though. I may email them to the rest of the MSFians, for business stuff.
Just listen to me. I already sound like a fuckin' corporate sellout. Well fuck it. Signing to a major label isn't selling out. Losing creative control and becoming a CORPORATE ROCK/POP BAND is selling out. Like Fall Out Boy.
In my opinion, Fall Out Boy overstayed their welcome. Yeah, I know that bands' sounds change over time and such, but... really. FOLIE A DEUX was... it wasn't the greatest. And I know some of you like FOB so I won't bash them too much. But I went to a Fall Out Boy concert a few years ago, back in the Infinity era. It was a small venue, it was amazing. And then FOLIE A DEUX came out, with all of its poppy goodness and it was kinda like... what happened to this little bratty pop-punk band that I saw at the AMH a year ago? What's going on?
And then now, Pete and Patrick get into a little hissy fit on Twitter, and Fall Out Boy breaks up. I mean really. Boys, if you're going to break your band up, at least be MATURE about it. Honestly. Twitter, really? Sheesh.
Which is what infuriates me. These bands with so much potential going and "selling out" so that they'll win over Corporate America--the teenyboppers, preteens, and teenage preps of the world. That's what they turned into, a teenybopper band that appealed to the girls who listened to the Jonas Brothers and things like that. And that's where I, and my punk rock ideals, draw the line.

Listen to me, going from restringing my guitar to Fall Out Boy. I think I need caffeine.

You talk about me as if I give a shit about your opinion....

Seems like ages since I've posted anything...normal for me.

Last one was a little...um.....suicidal? To say the least anyway.

Anyway.

School has started. Isn't that the icing on top of the bloody cake.

It's not too bad. You've got the bitches, the white boys who think they are the shit, the epic asian girls ( I love them all) and the asian guys (^_^).

Then, you have my epic group containing the 6 people that keep me from going insane.

I swear, I feel my IQ dropping by the second when I am around these.....people. Racist, homophobic bitches. All of them. If you had to sum up everything that is wrong with our generation, it is them. I can't have one conversation with any of them.

And believe me, I tried. I was nice. I sat with them a few times. I had to leave, or I would have punched them all in the face.

As we all know, I am pleasant to everyone. Why make an enemy with someone? Be pleasant and everything will be okay. I did that, to the best of my ability. But today, I found out, that they are calling me fat behind my back..

I am not one to worry about my weight. I don't watch it, I don't diet. If I did these things, I wouldn't be me. I have accepted myself as I am. And if they can't do that, then that's not my problem.

And if they can't think of anything else that is wrong with me apart from my weight, they need to observe me a little more closely. I could poke fun at about 20 qualities about all of them, all of them a million times better that simple 'fat'. What, couldn't think of anything better? Do you even know how to spell fat? And if I'm 'fat' than you need to take a check at what 'fat' really is.

Fat is not giving into anorexia. It's feeling free to eat whatever the hell you want, when you want to. It's having the strength to walk away from Supre knowing that you don't fit into anything, and being okay with it. It's being a strong person.

The way I see it, they just called me 'Fabulous And Talented' F.A.T.

So thank you, "popular" bitches. For making me take a deeper look at myself, and find out that I am stronger than any of you ever will be...

Stuff is just.......oh look a shiny thing!

*sigh* Well nothing happening here. Stuff is just..stuffish I guess. Btw Happy Bday Shadow Dearest...even though this is really late. Sorry. And Aliway I'm sick of the old posts as well.. I was just too lazy before to post a new one.

Oh well...
<3

My history teacher's name is BEAN.

Argh, I have nothing awesome to rival Ali's post. Except that my birthday was on Friday--the 5th.
Right now, I'm in my World History class, which is the freakin' best class ever. Although it makes me want to punch things, 'cause we're watching a hella racist movie about propaganda and WWII and the russian revolution, et cetera. It really reminds me how much society's changed, yet how much it's stayed the same. I mean, Prop 8? Makes me sick. Hey, all of you homophobic assholes out there--don't like gay marriage? Then don't get one and shut the fuck up.

Until Niagra Falls
~Shadow

Oh gawsh, I'm so sick of seeing my old post xD

It's so.. complain-y? Is that even a word..?

Anyway. I have epic news. Well, epic to me, I don't know what you guys'll think.. ^^'''

So. I met a guy called Baxter recently, last week. He's pretty cool, funny, a decent guy (and before y'all get kinky ideas, no, he has a girlfriend) and a good friend. So, also last week, he saw my DeviantArt page and basically spazzed at me over Skype. Then begged me to do the artwork for his band's new single (He plays bass, and get this, he looks just like Mikey Way outta Three Cheers, lawl).

He also plays piano, guitar, voice, and just basically pwns at everything.. *fumes*

So, I did a picture, sent it to Bax via email, and the very next time I saw him (Mz Tobi will vouch for me on this one lol) his first words weren't "hey" or "how's it going" or anything, it sort of started off with big wide eyes and "YOU - ARE - AWESOME!!!!"

Heh =D

They still want me to change a few bits here/there, put in the single title and band name, but otherwise he and the band love it.

So sometime in the near future, my art (yes MY art!!) will be on the cover of a CD.

And I thought there was nothing better than art and music - what about the two combined? x3

It's an epic song, by the way - Seeing You by Damaged Theory. I wouldn't think it's on Youtube or anything, but it IS a great song.

So yeah.. I'm pretty happy about that x3

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Well, hey.

Year 11 is interesting.

For one, my resident stalker has finally caused me to snap. I am sick and tired of this kid following me around all over school.. it's got to the point where she's moved into ALL my classes (hell, she moved into art and she doesn't even DRAW..) and she moved her locker right next to mine. THAT wasn't cool. I was not impressed at all. I'm freaked out and scared and stressed by this - I need space, right? Well this kid just completely invaded my personal bubble.. I only allow people into my bubble if I want to. The fact that she's just taken it upon herself to invade it without my approval just sends me bananas - this is BEYOND any 'admiration' or 'role model' stuff, if it were she'd respect me enough to give me some space, but hell no she can't even give me that. This is just scary shit. I'm talking to my year advisor on Monday with Bonnie, because I can't take this anymore.

Anyway. Enough about my stressful first days of Year 11. The stalker is my main problem, I guess without her everything is just ok, peachy. I just need some SPACE.

So yeah. Thought I'd blog, let you know how it's all going.

...I seem to have run out of stuff to talk about.

Hope you guys are alright.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Hmmm...

There hasn't been a post in a while..(a while being like 2 or more weeks.) Umm not much to say. I'm back in Australia at school. My dorm is awesome. Beat that!

Well anyway..bye bye. ^^

Seeing as this is the band website...

There. Enjoy. Performance pictures ftw.

Oh Dear.....

Well seeing as we have a bunch of bandmates depressed for obvious reasons I will be the ray of sunshine and say a few things.

Darling Tobi said she may come back. We shall wait and see how things work out. But knowing us all it will be fine. A fight is a fight, no matter how bad it may seem. I remember beginning of last year how I had a huge fight with Aliway and said I never wanted to talk to her again. Let's just say that didn't work. Thankfully.

Until then let us all go into our little music crazed worlds. While you devote yourself to your songs I shall be reading fanfiction. If anyone needs me I shall be involved in some overly dramatic plotline that probably involves yaoi.

Until then we shall just be wishing for the best.... <3

Help.

We seem to love hitting potholes.

Just as we sort everything out.. 

Why?

Co-founder and one of the two guitarists of our band, Mz. Tobi, has decided she's leaving.

Also the one who came up with our epic band name. Slogan. Powered my dream for the band and kept it alive, even when it was a shadow in the back of our minds and I would shake my head and think it was a pointless nothing. She would still convince me that it's worth it. She would remind me of my love for music - piano - and rekindle my faith in the dream.

Now, that person no longer wants to be part of this dream.

What's going to happen to the dream?

I'm going to admit something here. All this time, from the time MSF emerged as a brainchild of Tobi's, I never imagined it without her. People come and go, but she was constant. She was ALWAYS there - always in my future. I didn't care what we were doing, but I always knew it would be with her. We were a team, right? Superheroes.. Papercut Man, The Superstitionist, and our crazy leader Duct Tape Girl. I apologize - at this point in time, I can't remember the others (I only remember Papercut Man because I think of it whenever I get a papercut).

I nearly cried reading Kyrie's blog, because it's true and reminded me of how bad things are.

I don't know if Tobi'll come back, but I know this much - I don't know about anyone else, but I'm happy to welcome her back with open arms. As long as she's willing, so am I.

At the moment, I'm kind of right in the depths of my music, finding solace curled around an iPod.

~lylt,

The Aliway.

Music is my life....

I don't feel like doing anything.

I want it to be the way it was a year ago. When I didn't have to deal with this, when everyone was still a school. When I didn't have so much pain and regret. To feel untroubled and not worried. To not have a care, I want to feel that once more.

I close my eyes and it's there. The sound of her voice saying that it's going to be okay. Saying that she is truly happy. But how can I believe this voice when she is being drowned out with my screams of anger and distrust? How can I trust someone who has let me down? How can I get through this?

Music is alway there. It helps me forget everything, if only for 3 minutes. But that is 3 minutes where my thoughts are silent. 3 minutes where I can breathe.

The Melody drifts through the corridors of my mind. Filling my very soul.

I forget everything. Focus on the song. Slipping into the effortless fall of the notes. Every piano key, every string of the guitar, every word that is sung, I feel myself forget.

But then the song ends, along with my peace. I fumble for my ipod, hurriedly trying to press repeat. But it's too late, the thoughts take their chance and invade my mind. Screaming to me. Reminding me of what I long to forget. I shakily press the button, and once again my head is filed with silence, and once again I fall....effortlessly.....into peace.

Sonic Youth

Last night, we went to the Fillmore and saw Sonic Youth.
The ninth greatest band in the history of the universe--without which, there would be no contemporary bands such as Green Day, My Chemical Romance, AFI, etc.
There would be no Nirvana without Sonic Youth.
It was a spectacular show. I was right up against the stage. Kim Gordon scowled at me once or twice--but she's a pretty scowly person, anyway.
Now, the Fillmore. It's like the second or third most famous venue in the Bay Area. There are all these pictures on the walls of all the bands who played there. I saw a picture of Jimi Hendrix, and it made me sad.
There was also a picture of Courtney Love as Hole, Carlos Santana, The Greatful Dead, The Doors, and countless other rock n' rollers.
I want to play there someday.

AHAHAHAHAHA

Mario music. Lol, I always thought they were total Mario music, Owl City. Not bad, though.

Exodus.. well... ehh, it's pretty close to Eulogy. Both begin with E, right?

And you won't believe me, but guess what my mum did while I was spending Christmas in PNG - she freaking downloaded my Bullets album!! Scarier? SHE LOVES IT. MY MOTHER - MY EASYLISTENING LOVING MOTHER - LIKES BULLETS. Does this scare anyone else but me? Like, I'm ecstatic that she actually likes it - now I know she doesn't just listen to MCR to humour me - but, seriously. This is one crazy revelation.

On another note. I have had zero time to do anything. Interesting. So much for holidays, right?

I like fully helped my sister make freaking caramel slice yesterday - even I'm worried.

Oh, and Shadow - I love Monty Python xD those coconut horses rock..

~lylt

The Aliway

Random Stuff

I agree Aliway dear. Eulogy (I think that's how it's spelt) it quite an epic store. We did have fun up there.. even if we were only there for ten minutes. And I am happy you finally call the store by it's proper name instead of Exodus.. I seriously wonder how you came up with that.

Hmm Shadow I haven't seen Monty Python.. I think I'm the only person in the world that hasn't. Or maybe not. Maybe there's a secret society of people who haven't seen it. Maybe they shall take over the world. Who knows. I don't...

Seeing as Aliway had a rant I want a rant too. I saw a gecko yesterday. It was green. Though a small reptile isn't much to rant about... and I rant bout CB too often. I like Owl City lately. Very amazingly epic. Especially The Saltwater Room. Though some of thier music does remind me of Mario Bros.. just cuz Aliway pointed that out a while ago.

Random Rant Over.

Mønti Pythøn lk den Hølie Grailen

Røtern nik Akten Di
Wik

Alsø wik 

Alsø alsø wik 

Wi nøt trei a høliday in Sweden this yer? 

See the løveli lakes
 

The wonderful telephøne system 

And mani interesting furry animals

         

The Producers would like to thank The Forestry Commission
        Doune Admissions Ltd, Keir and Cowdor Estates, Stirling
        University, and the people of Doune for their help in the
        making of this film.
        The Characters and incidents portrayed and the names used
        are fictitious and any similarity to the names, characters,
        or history of any person is entirely accidental and
        unintentional.
                         

Signed RICHARD M. NIXON

 

Including the majestic møøse 

A Møøse once bit my sister ... 

No realli!  She was Karving her initials on the møøse
with the sharpened end of an interspace tøøthbrush given
her by Svenge - her brother-in-law - an Oslo dentist and
star of many Norwegian møvies:  "The Høt Hands of an Oslo
Dentist", "Fillings of Passion", "The Huge Mølars of Horst
Nordfink".

 

We apologise for the fault in the
subtitles.  Those responsible have been
sacked.

 

Mynd you, møøse bites Kan be pretty nasti...

 

We apologise again for the fault in the subtitles.  Those
responsible for sacking the people who have just been sacked
have been sacked. 

Monty Python and the Holy Grail

The eighth greatest movie in the history of the world.

If you haven't seen it, go watch it now.

Thank you for your time. 

Well, hey.

I'm sitting in front of t.v looking like a bogan and happy as hell.

For one, I am in LOVE with the music store Eulogy in Armidale. Ehehe.. epicness store.

And I have a new MCR t-shirt. From aforementioned Eulogy.

Can I rant about Eulogy? Okay.

Well, it's like a indie/punk/metal music store. Bottom storey is the register, t-shirts and hoodies, and the listening booth. Yes, you heard me - LISTENING BOOTH.

Upstairs is the CD's and stuff, excellent stuff, and a couch and footrest. It's awesome - you know how most stores, like, try to push you into buying something or leaving if you don't buy anything? Well Eulogy practically invites you to stay for the afternoon. It's a great little place to hang out, just sit upstairs listening to whatever's playing, or grab a CD and go into the booth. Excellence.

It opened a while ago, but closed over Xmas/New Years, and just reopened on Tuesday and MAN I'm happy to have it open again.

~lylt,

The Aliway

Today, I had my first day at my new school. MLIA.

Maybeck School for the Kids Who Are Left-Wing and Artistic Enough to go to OSA but they Care More About Academics than the OSA-ers and so are at Maybeck Instead.

It was okay. There was a guitar in the hallway, which I played for most of lunch. I think I annoyed a few seniors.
The bus ride home was interesting, to say the least.

I think I am going to cry....

ugh, as if my day wasn't as awesome as it already is *sarcasm*.

My computer decides to crash! Well, not crash, but die slowly. It won't let me see pictures or anything!! so sucky!!

Anyway. I am currently brainstorming ideas for songs, i have 2 so far.

Well, the first one is obvious, we talked about this on Skype. MUD!!

For some reason we are making a mud video. lol. Oh yeah, sexy. haha jk.

And i had another idea of doing a music video in tunnels. It would look awesome, well it does in my mind.

Anyway, this is just a meaningless blog because I am bored.

Anyway....

tootles!

By The Way.

I am most happy with the new accordance of order.

Though.

I must make one point.

PIANO NOT KEYBOARD DAMMIT. KEYBOARD IS IN SYNC WITH SYNTH/EFFECTS.

Okay, now I'm all good.

Aaaall good.

By the way, I am the epic sauce at helping someone write a post over Skype. AND when they're dealing with an internet consisting of Cantonese. Hell yeah *nods*

And thus. 

I think we are sorted out now...

Excellent. >:D

~lylt

The Aliway

Pringles or Gum?

Okay, this has been the most challenging blog I have ever been on. Since I have never been on a blog, I am just submitting a guess.

First of all, being in China doesn't help. Also, everything being in Cantonese doesn't help.

3 people tried to help me, all failing apart from ALIWAY!!!!! Thank God.

Anyway.

I should introduce myself.

I am Valkyrie, we have shortened it to Kyrie. Which, in Latin, means 'Oh Lord' so yeah. Its supposed to be begging for mercy. Yes, I am the mighty.

Anyway.

hmm, what to write?

Probs something about myself.

Music: Cinema Bizarre, MCR, MSI, pretty much anything with an acronym, haah.

Movies: Anything that can make me scream or laugh. Pretty much an awesome movie, i.e Avatar, now that was awesome.

Books: I used to be a Twilight junkie, not anymore!! Now I love Skullduggery pleasant, Cirqu Du Freak and Deltora Quest. hahaa, well not anymore.

Anyway, I recently moved to Hong Kong :'(.

So we've been here for like a few weeks and its pretty awesome. Move the MSF base here!! haha.

well, I am, as The Aliway so kindly stated, the anime freak. Anything anime, I'm drooling. So yes.

:)

And I am happy to announce that I am the Bassist!!! So I will start learning that when I get to school! :)

Which is in 16 days!! ahh!!!

Well I have just wasted about 5 minutes of your life that you can never get back so I will stop now.

ttyl!

xxox

It Would Seem Things Are Finally Sorted

We all know we had a massive problem with both Shadow and Mz. Tobi wanting to be guitar. Well that has finally been worked out. Well almost, Aliway must still agree. So here's the plan/new positioning system:

Saji (me): lead singer (still that hasn't changed :D)
Shadow: guitar and backup
Mz. Tobi: guitar
Kyrie: bass
Aliway: keyboard AND synth

Thanks to Shadow for thinking of that. Hopefully it will make everyone happy. Anyway bye bye. <3

Why's That?

I like Lady Gaga personally. I don't see how you can respect someone but not like them. Wait no, yes I do. Nevermind. Lol.

Anyway... Kyrie should be posting any minute.. she's having some problems though.. all the sign up pages were in chinese. She didn't find it nearly as funny as I did. :D

I have one thing to say.

Lady Gaga.
Would beat the shit.
Out of.
Katy Perry.
In.
A boxing.
Match.

Thank you for your time.

(EDIT: I don't actually like Lady Gaga. I just respect her. And thing that she's more badass than Katy Perry.)

Just To Sort Things Out...

If you really wanna know why she's called Mz. Tobi ask her.. I think it's just cuz she's a girl and the character was a guy.

Somehow this reminds me that I have to officially welcome our newest member and synth player cuz she has now officially joined us. So then, Kyrie welcome to MSF. As I said before we are the most awesome 6 people in the world.. though nobody else knows it yet. ^.^

Anyway, Shadow you must invite her to the blog... it would help if we could get the other 3 on here.

Okay then..

..Though as far as I know she's still adamant about playing guitar. Has she even agreed to play bass yet?

And she's Mz Tobi because that's her self-bestowed nickname, for some reason.. xD

Tobi comes from Naruto - one of the characters is called Tobi - and I have no clue where the Mz came from.

Haha awesome!! Must get to this Gilman some day. Armidale is shit for shows. Anything you CAN get is in Tamworth, and it's all country shit anyway. I am living one hour away from the Country Music Capital Of Australia. I am not even exaggerating, that is what it's called!!!

Anyway. Good luck in school Shadow, it shouldn't be too bad right? *hug*

~lylt

The Aliway